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Hey, Frank

Dude.  All this stuff is happening.

First of all, I still love classes.  I'm having a really tough time with this most recent paper.  At first, I thought she wanted us to write a more autobiographical piece.  Then I thought she wanted a more analytical piece.  She wants something... that both and neither.  So I'm working on that.  When she read mine on Monday, she highlighted a lot of things that she said I could use.  Wicked.  The bigest problem, I guess, is that my paper is almost done and it's a page and a half too short.  I'll have to find something else to write about... hmmm.

On the social side, I'm trying to be friendly with the russian class people, but they were kind of cold to me today. I waved and nothing.  Also, Lauren is much more interested in talking to Mr. Salisbury than to me.  Oh, well.

Also, I feel like Alex is flirting. A LOT. I'm not so sure how to respond to that. I'm not so sure that I don't still have feelings for some one else. But then again... I dunno, haha. I'm really tired.

I'd like to pet you, frank. I'd like to pet you...
-James

ps. I'm loving the antibiotics, but I only have 3 pills left and it doesn't seem like the infection is all gone yet... Hm...

Hey, Frank.

First, on the health side: I finally went to a doctor. She's going to run some tests and find out what I have, so hopefully I'll get some medication. I'm SO ready to get some treatment. I'm sooooo glad it was a woman doctor. When she took the speculum out, I got this looks of horror on my face and and she seemed to understand that I really hated it. God, I hate the speculum... so she only put it partially in. Still a painful exam, but about 10 times less painful than the pap. I'm so glad I never had sex with a man. If he'd done that to me, I'd have killed him. NO doubt in my mind.

Also sort of medical, I'm getting more hair, which is cool, but my muscles are coming in in weird places. I now have muscles on my back for no real reason. Maybe it's the push-ups? Also, my left arm's triceps and biceps are growing, but not my right arm's... weird.

Also some weird things socially. Suddenly some girls are like... interested in talking to me. And looking at me. It's a little weird. I'm such a loner now-a-days. Plus, I'm still feeling my way around right now. So yeah.

Also, I'm doing well in school. For the first time in about 5 years. So, good. Man, I didn't do anything in high school.

Ok, frank... :pets: ... See you around!

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I stole this from ftmichael

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
The first thing I do I turn around a few times so I get all wet. Otherwise, it's more like rubbing a dry soapy towel on my dry body. Which I don't really feel does anything to get me clean.

2. What colour is your favourite hoodie?
I have only one hooded sweatshirt and it is brown.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Uhm. If she wanted me to.

4. Do you plan outfits?
Yes.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
I"m feeling alright. A little nervous about writing my paper

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
Northeastern paraphernalia.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having.
I've been having really weird dreams lately. The other day, I was trying to court a girl but... it wasn't a girl it was a frog. And halfway through I realized it was a frog and I was really really surprised. But like... it took me five dates to figure this out?

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
No.

9. What are you craving right now?
Uhm... NOthing I guess.

10. Do you floss?
HELL no.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
КАПУСТА!

12. Are you emotional?
I used to be, but I'm much better now.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
NO.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Who the HELL bites ice cream??

15. Do you like your hair?
Oh...

16. Do you like yourself?
Yeah, sure.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Is he buying? If so, totally!

18. What are you listening to right now?
Seinfeld is on

19. Are your parents strict?
Not exactly

20. Would you go sky diving?
No...

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yeah!

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
No. Apparently I was close to meet Lady Gaga this weekend, but I ran right past her.

23. Do you rent movies often?
No.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Not really.

25. How many countries have you visited?
I think 8.

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
No...

27. Ever been on a train?
Yes...

28. Brown or white eggs?
Doesn't matter.

29. Do you have a cell phone?
Yes.

30. Do you use chapstick?
Yes but... I thought I brought some with me to school, but I opened it and... it was totally empty? It was really bizarre. As if some one had stolen my chapstick out of the chapstick thing..... Anyway, I gotta buy some more.

31. Do you own a gun?
No.

32. Can you use chopsticks?
Yes.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
All alone.

34. Are you too forgiving?
Often.

35. Ever been in love?
Once. Maybe twice but I'm a little... confused about that.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
I don't want to answer this.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
What the HELL is a cream puff?

38. Last time you cried?
I cried one night this sumer because my girlfriend was in the hospital and I suddenly... missed her?

39. What was the last question you asked?
Either "можно пойти в туалет (?)" or "куда?"

40. Favourite time of the year?
Autumn.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
No.

42. Are you sarcastic?
Sometimes, but I'm bad detecting it.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Parts. I didn't enjoy it.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
Yes. Yes. Oh yes.

45. Favourite colour?
Purple.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Well, once I opened my eyes and my friend had appeared two inches from my face. I slapped him as a reflex. Generally, I'm against violently touching some one at any time. I was just really... surprised.

47. Is your hair curly?
Yes, I'm black.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
I dunno.

49. Do looks matter?
To me? Not really. IN life? It seems so.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Well, I have before, but in the future, it will depend more on the situation. But I generally have a policy of forgiving everyone who wants it.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
I don't pay it.

52. Do you like your life right now?
Yeah. I'm building things one day at a time.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
If I forget to turn it off.

54. Can you handle the truth?
Mostly.

55. Do you have good vision?
No, but it's better than some people's

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
No... I don't dislike many people.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not really. BUt I like to.

58. The last person you held hands with?
I dunno. My ex maybe. I don't remember.

59. What are you wearing?
Boxer breifs...

60. What is your favourite animal?
I dunno. Maybe a chinchilla. I dunno. Actually, i've never answered this way, but I think humans aren't terrible. Yeah, I think I'll say humans.

61. Where was your default picture taken?
Prom.

62. Can you hula hoop?
No. way.

63. Do you have a job?
No.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
I dunnooo... OH
Rosie the Riveter hand towels. $5 ea. So worth it.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes?

 Ok, about time an entry happened.

So the march:  that was pretty sweet.  The March it self was pretty cool.  I got to see all of it from the end to the beginning, so that was awesome.   I didn't really make any friends, but that's not going to kill me.  I ran into a few people I knew so that was cool too.  I really wasn't expecting Gen to be there, but that was cool.  Also, the Socialist lady that I met was one of the smartest, coolest women that I know.

The bad thing is that... when ever there was an anti-gay person, some activists got really in their face.  It was to the point of screaming at him through a megaphone or almost pushing him.  I'm really against that.  I feel like doing it makes our cause look bad.  I understand that some people are really angry, but... I don't think it's excusable.

Other things?

I dunno.   There's not really anything else.  I have to write a five page paper tonight.  It's not unprecedented, but it obviously won't come out my best work.  It just goes to show that I shouldn't have procrastinated.  But I'm doing really really well in Russian and English, so I probably shouldn't be so hard on myself.  Also, my SaP midterm is coming up on Monday.  I plan on making flashcards.  I think I'm going to be fine.

As for the romantic life.  There's one girl who seems interested in me, but I dunno about that.  Or if I'm interested back.  Hm.

Ok, Frank, peace.

Today I saw RPenz.  She is very bizarre.  She tried to eat some spaghetti, but that didn't quite work out for her.

Also, I'm off to Washington, DC.  The trip comes at a good time because I could use a change of scene.  I'm not going to go into the details, but certain circumstances have cause my whole room to smell like vagina.

I'm gonna shave today.  It'll take about 3 weeks for the hair to grow back but... I feel I should shave.  ><

SO life's going well.

See you on Monday, Frank.

Yeah + Bitches.

HAHAHA  Apparently I got the bonus question right.  The question was this:  It is possible that humans produce pheromones (smells that attract the opposite sex), but it has not been proven.  It is suggested that women secrete this smell when they are ovulating.  In one experiment, it was shown that lap dancers got 25% more tips when they were ovulating than when they were not.  Not including phermones, what is something that could cause this 25% increase?

Any one wanna guess?

Anywhoser... oh my god, this girl's cell phone keeps vibrating...

And my professor is poking this guy's tongue with a q-tip...

I'm not sure where to end this entry...

how about here:

Yeah, new song.  It's not the best considering I did it in an hour and a half.  I'm open to suggestions about lyrics or melody or whatever.  Also, the harmony is off in ... places lol.

But yeah, making this was fun.  I always the sounded kind of like this.

Also my nose was a little stuffed while sang because before I was feeling a little emotional but... oh well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaiKhsRSTV0 

I can hardly believe I'm still feeling this way.

Hi, Frank.

I'm SO tired. School is going ok, but I'm only able to write my education paper in small bits. Hopefully, thought, I'll get it done. I don't think I'll be able to pull any all nighters, but I will try to get a lot of sleep in.

For the first time in a little while, I'm feeling a little lonely. I don't know what to think of that...

I'm watching KotH though. Love it.

Well, see you later, Frank

Back to south tomorrow! I really want to go see the shop teacher whose name I can remember. And Ms. Linde. And Chloe?!?! I like her lol... And... well, that's about it. Maybe RPenz, but I'll be seeing her on saturday, probably. My mom wants me to sleep over... I probably will.... >

I'm starting to think that there's something really wrong with me. I feel like my body is failing one part at a time. I should probably go to a doctor, but I don't want to and don't have the time. Maybe I should just not worry as much and wait everything out.

Hmmm...

I'm really upset about my health.  Along with having really bad asthmatic coughing fits, I've ben bleeding for 36 hours.   I just want the bleeding to stop, but i don't know if it's dangerous enough to go to a doctor/ER.  I haven't told my mom...  Well...  I guess we'll see what happens.  

-James

I don't think I even know what to say. I'm just feeling like... I don't want to say it explicitly on livejournal, but I'm feeling kind of down.

Well, I know that they tell you to look up your professors right away, but I decided to wait until now.

And I'm Really Scared.

Professor Atwood's Reviews:
"I am so glad she was fired! ...The majority of students who came in to teach high school quit the program because she was so cruel. I am one of the few remaining this year and the only reason I am still around is because she is no longer working at Lesley."

"She was the worst professor ever! Our class had to have interventions with her because her workload was as demanding as three courses together. She was extremely rude to everyone and made her students feel horrible about themselves."

Professor Petrov's Reviews:
(these reviews are for the same class I'm taking)
WORST TEACHER EVER. DO. NOT. TAKE. THIS. CLASS. ever.

DEATH AND DESTRUCTION

Really bad class. All lecture, but questions taken from obscure points in text. No reviews before exams, no interest in helping students understand material

Professor Thordike-Breeze: Many of the reviews are good, Many of them are bad, but most of them are neutral.

"Her class is easy, the only problems I had with taking her class is the way she didn't have any organization with her lessons. She also would get upset easily (moody) and would stray too far off topic. If she doesn't like something you're doin, she'll call you out in front of everyone. I've had better english teachers... much better."

The russian guy, I dunno about. It's weird because professor atwood semed really nice today. But I'll take these people's wor dabout Professor Petrov. He really did seem that way at the Departmental meeting.

Whoa! So beginning of story: Basically, I only have one binder. I had two, but the other one didn't work for me and... I broke it. I'm also really busy AND really lazy. For a while during the summer, I neglected to wash it as often as I should and so eventually I developed a horrible burning rash on my back. After this, mother mother wanted to buy me more binders. We decided to get two binders and the swim top. The binders just arrived today and my mom... Got me 8 binders. And the whole swim thing, not just the top. That was... intensely nice of her. I don't even know if I'll ever use that many!

So yeah, my mom's really nice. I guess I'll have to skip compass tomorrow to come home for her birthday lol.

College preparations still underway. I might finish by the end of tomorrow or on thursday. And then I'll be off. In a lot of was, I can't wait. In a few ways, I'm sad to go.

So yes.  K broke up with me.

It's a little sad, but I feel like she did it for the right reasons.  She's sweet.  I don't know about being friends right away, but I think that if she'll let me have a little time, I'll want to.  But I don't know if she'll want to when I want to.  But anyway, I guess I'm glad we had the time together that we did.

College starts so soon!  Hopefully that will help me move on, lack of free time.

Mmmm, I will miss her.

I know I should make an entry, but I don't know what to say.

Last night, Jazmin slipped and fractured her skull.   I don't know her condition.  I feel worried.

I'm seeing Kristin today, and I'm excited, really I am.  It's just that I can't stop thinking about Jazmin.  I think Kristin will get annoyed with me if I'm too upset about Jazmin.  I don't know.

I don't know.

So...

It's the end of the summer.

I've finally finished all the scenes and I'm at work with nothing to do.  Luckily it's my last day.  Not that I don't like MIT, just that a) I don't have anything to do and b) this is not the most incredibly interesting Job I've ever had.  But it paid well for a part time summer job.

I'm glad that this summer happened.  In terms of me, a lot of good things happened.  First paying job (as far a the gov. knows), name change, first shot of T, new doctor, awesome girlfriend, and pretty cool internship.  Also a pretty good vacation in there.  I feel bad that my summer has been pretty good, but my girlfriend's has been her "worst summer ever."  But I guess that's life.  I guess I can just try to be there for her

Looking at my calendar, my schedule looks like...

28th - Party
29th - Kristin
30th - School Shopping
31st - Packing I guess.
1st - Nothing
2nd - Nothing
3rd - Mom
4th - Nothing
5th - ?
6th - ?
7th - Nothing
8th - Free day
9th - School

So... I guess I'll want to fill up the nothings at some point.  Hmmm.

I dunno.  Once I get into school, I'm going to try to ACTually study hard for classes.   In high school, I just felt so pressured that I didn't do any work.  I hope that doesn't happen again.  I hope I don't slip too, because  it's is hard to stop once I've started.  I really want to look into getting a sponsor, but there are few volunteers at my meeting.  I guess I should look into going to an additional meeting.  Oop!  I also better make sure I have a five or some singles this time.  Last time, I had to put a 20 into collection and take 7 singles out.  I was really not anticipating spending that 13 dollars...  But c'est la vie.

I told K about SLAA.  That went really well.  Also, I love her.


Yes... so there's my life.

Fun times had by all.

Maybe.